Lookie Lookie!

Oh man. Hello World. I just finally crawled out of my hole a year later to update you on the end of 2010, and now most of 2011.

First off, really sorry about my absence. I'm not gonna lie, I got lazy, then busy, then depressed, and now, I'm slowly getting out of the depression, and into a new phase of my life.

So much has happened, I can't possibly catch you up on all of it. Let's hit a few highlights, shall we?

1) I'm single. Don't ask because I'll start to cry and shut myself in my apartment for another 8 months. Just know that I am. Not being in love anymore sucks, but at least now, 8 months later and a few years of seeing it coming, I am on the road to recovery. I finally see all the opportunity that is ahead of me, and I am doing my best to stay busy, not wallow in loneliness, and see myself for who I really am: Strong, funny, beautiful, ambitious, and a little crazy. :) My friends have been nothing but supportive and make sure I'm not slitting my wrists. I'm contemplating seeing a counselor to help me move on a little better. I'll document that drama as it unfolds when the time comes.

2) I don't work at Soho House anymore. Woo hoo! I got a new opportunity through a friend of a friend, and now my finances are stable, and I have a lot of free time to enjoy my life. I am planning on taking a lot of trips, cooking classes, and volunteer opportunities. Because of the situation, I unfortunately can't audition. But, I am justifying this position by acknowledging that my finances were/are in disarray, and I need this next year to claw out of a bit of the $40k debt I've buried myself in. Also, I'm in my 20's. Officially in my late 20's. I need to live a little, stop worrying so much, and have fun! My official motto for the rest of 2011 and 2012: HAVE FUN, NOT ANXIETY ATTACKS. Oh, and make my boss fall in love with me and Jesus, which is a feat in itself so it will take most of my attention.

3) My friends are the most amazing people. 2011 has been an amazing time for friends in my life. And the kind of friends who reciprocate and understand. They aren't just "fun", they are kind, reliable, and a necessity. God is showing up in the form of some of the most fascinating, and supportive people I've ever had the privilege to call friends.

4) My little sister is married. Wow. But she seems happy. She told me this morning that she weighs the most she ever has. Which ALWAYS happens. You get married, you get fat. I'm serious. Look at everyone you know who got married in the last 2 years on Facebook. Compare pictures. Bigger? Yep. Also, her husband got a new meat smoker so they've been experimenting for the last two weeks straight. I'm sure that probably has something to do with it.

5) I'm still in the same apartment. My parents came to visit this past week, so with my daddy and mommy's help, I was able to hang some curtains, pictures, and organize. Gina has been out of town (summer hiatus again) since June 19th. I went Rambo on her bathroom and bedroom about two weeks ago, and the hall closet is immaculate.

6) Still training and working out. I am a part of two classes I really enjoy, and I train at LA Fitness with the same trainer about once a week. I don't look too much different, but I'm definitely more defined. I still wear the same size, but I'm working on the diet part of my fitness routine. I have eliminated blatant dairy from my diet. By blatant, I mean, I still eat it in sauces, baked goods, and I have eggs every once in a while if I feel like it. It's helped a lot. I had a small glass of milk this past week and almost cried from how bloated I felt. I don't eat a lot of meat or pasta, and I take vitamins every day. My next paycheck I am going to do the Clean Detox for 21 days. I know it seems like a lot, but I'm not going into it cold turkey. I've been prepping for a big detox for the last 10 months or so, slowly eliminating things and changing my diet, reading and researching, and now I think I can really follow through and do it right. Plus, I'm paying a pretty penny for it, so that would motivate anybody. I WILL be a size 6 by the time summer is over!

7) One of my goals for the rest of the year is to move my older sister, Caron, out here. I have a network of people finding her job opportunities. :) If you know of any in the LA area, please alert me.



I believe that's about it for now. Stay tuned, I promise my life will get exciting.