CLEAN Program: Completed

I did it. Finished the program. Not with the exact, drastic results I was hoping for, but results nonetheless. I lost a healthy 7 pounds (with my frame, not that you can tell) and felt a lot cleaner. No more stomach aches, itchy skin, or midafternoon naps.

Then my mom came to visit and it all went to shit. We ate Mexican food, and cheese after carb after cheese. She also got me back into the habit of making coffee every morning. Whoops. And now my digestive aches are back, and my mood swings. Boooo. But, I have been working out at least 4-5 days a week, and it feels great. My arms look a lot different.



I was asked last week to be a bridesmaid in my good friend Mandy's wedding to the wonderful and handsome Eric Phillips. I'm honored and excited! I've never been in a friend's wedding before! I'm also blessed that I have the free time and financial means to be involved. Mandy and Eric are super fun, I'm sure the wedding and everything surrounding it will be nothing less than off the hook.

I was able to take a casting workshop this past weekend with one of the ladies I read for during the early 2011 pilot season. She's a sweet lady, but not really casting much at the moment. I at least got to refresh her of my face and resume, and it got me up and reading again, which was nice. I have a few friend projects lined up as well that will exercise my muscle.

October will hopefully be a busy travel month for me! My girlfriends and I are planning a trip to Santa Barbara, I'll be meeting Caron in San Fran in the middle of the month, then hopefully going home to Florida at the end for some family time and to cheers Mandy and Eric at their engagement party. We'll see how it all works out. Like I said, I'm very blessed that I have the flexibility to do all this.

On a more serious note, I've had a very odd week emotionally. Maybe it's the coffee, but I'm in a bit of a funk and I can't put my finger on why. I had to remind myself again today that I can no longer live my life for someone other than myself. I worry so much about the decisions I make on a daily/weekly basis, but not for myself, but what other(s) will think. It's exhausting. I believe I am a smart, capable woman who makes good decisions for a 25 year old who doesn't really know what she's doing in life, and I need to be confident in that. I'm happy with my life. I really am. I believe God is working and pleased. I shouldn't continuously stress over if everyone else is happy with my life. I don't need to explain things to anyone, or plot out my life path for everybody. Mostly because I can't even do that for my mind's sake. I guess what I'm saying is, I should not base my decisions on what could go wrong if I choose one way or the other. Everything always works out in life, because I have a good head on my shoulders, and people who love me (all thanks to God, big ups Dude). I won't wait around to make a move because, "What if so and so shows back up?" "Should I go on this trip, what if I all of the sudden don't have the money?" "Do I feel like explaining this to my family?" I'm going to do what feels right for me, on a daily basis, and hope God is pleased, and ask that everyone else, who is not omnipotent and the creator of the universe, trusts me...and that includes myself. Feel free to draw conclusions based on what I've written here, what you see across the interwebs....they're probably not true.

Speaking of, my boss isn't getting married or adopting, or having anything to do with Sandra Bullock. I know it's hard to believe that people can make a successful, lucrative business out of selling fodder, but they do. I know, I know; the world is screwed up. So, no matter what you read in the "magazines", it's not true. It's sad because you want to feel like you're connected and "in the know" but unfortunately, it's all fabricated. You may even be thinking now, "Psh, no it's not. There's always some truth." Well, yes, but the "some truth" is always something really boring that they push into something more exciting. Until a story has a solid person speaking on the party's behalf, ("a friend close to the couple", "an insider" are made up, kids) don't believe it. I'm sorry to crush you like this, but, just one of the secrets of Hollywood. Oh, and almost everyone has had plastic surgery. Just think about all of that before you text me or send me FB messages, not that I don't love hearing from you!

Okay, I've blown your mind enough for one day. 'Til next time, watch Season 9 of Ellen that premiered yesterday!!! (Said that for Gina, love you girl.)